My sister Vicki, has been dead for ten years. In my dream, I had a feeling something was wrong and I had her body exhumed. When the coffin was opened, I saw her. Badly decomposed but strangely still lovely. Her hands were folded across her chest with a rosary. Then I saw a pregnant belly. She wasn't pregnant but in the dream she was. The doctor cut open her belly and laid a perfect baby girl in my arms. The baby was beautiful. She was alive and looked just like me! Bright blue eyes and pink cheeks! I was so happy that I got her out.
I made her my baby. She loved me and drank my milk. I was convinced Vicki had left me her child to love since she could not stay. Then things became different. Everyone around me could not see that the baby was alive. To everyone else, she was dead. But when they left the room the baby woke and would smile and coo and was such a joy. I ignored the others and kept my new baby girl. I took pictures of her with my other two children, but when I looked at the photos.. she was dead. I was horrified!! I didn't understand!
It was awful. I woke up crying hysterically. I felt so empty. The dream was so real. I saw my sister.. for the first time since she died. And it was like she gave me a gift to help me cope.
What a terrible thing to dream. It affected my entire day yesterday. I feel the ache of her loss, all over again. And the loss of her baby, that felt so good to hold.
You told me once that you had a premonition that you should have another child. Perhaps this is Vicky reinforcing that notion of yours. You are a wonderful mother and an amazing woman. More children would be lucky to have someone like you caring for them.
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